I am sure failing “O” level with two big “chop” on it.

See you in I.T.E.

Blah blah blah, if i failed ‘O’ level i will first cry and write a letter to tell my mother i love her and then suicide. No point living on, if all your friends are moving towards a high class society and you’re still walking slowly as well as getting a low pay. I know i’ve said many cruel stuff about people in ITE but actually i don’t mean it, i mean not all people there are bad, right? Since there are bad guys in rich people… misconceptions definitely kills. (:x) So as i was saying, if i have said anything bad to you i am sorry and i will apologized sincerely to you in person that i was being such a bitch. And the fact that i don’t wanna to end up in ITE as i have put in so many effort to study for the past ten years or so. I don’t want my efforts to go to waste. So as i am typing this post, many have already finished one book about chemistry or physics or even done about ten maths problem sums. And i am still here deelly dially typing meaningless stories about my life, how “positive” that can be as a blogger..

Aishhhh… i tired, let’s called it the day, goodbye

Take for example, the movie “I,robot”… The control system learns about the movements of the people relying on her, and starts to have a feeling and mind of it’s own, then one day it turn into a horror, which will destroy the whole of human society, and if without the scientist being able to notice the problem and left a “cure” on earth. I think probably countries with robots would long gone… (=.=”’) Kind of creepy huh! Not to mention that these human lookalikes are still systems controlled by us, god knows if the person controlling them use them for what purpose to achieve his or her goals. Bad thing about human beings is that they are greedy and with tonnes of feelings and emotions, especially moodswings and etc, whatever crap we haven’t find out yet. At first, the robots might seem to be impressive but when they become faulty, who are we gonna blame? Of course are those who built them. See, as a human being myself, i’m ashamed since i would be in the gang complaining as well.

But since, these robots aren’t finalized yet, let’s watch how they change with the times. However by then i might be dead because it might take decades for the robots to be “perfect” and another decades for them to have problems… So it’s the next generations’ problem and this generations can be spectators of these events, so sit back and relax, lastly have fun being a sadist.

–〉郁闷阿~

最近，我好容易哭哦。哭的点都好奇怪，连看个卡通都能鼻子酸。是因为上年纪了吗？（也不过十七岁）原来我是个这么娘的人，So软柔。就是外钢内柔的性格。总爱死撑。哦！我想起了有一次我在学校偷偷哭过。我躲在厕所里演“感人的偶像剧”。坐在马桶盖上，拿着厕纸擦鼻涕。（为什么哭呢？）因为成绩很差被老师“酸”所以心里很委屈，忍不了就很想哭。而且那时候，我觉得和同学比起来我真的是“一滩烂泥”好讨厌这样的自卑感。人比人真的是会比死人。有时候being content is enough。明白吗？

Being grateful for what you have and not be greedy for what you don’t have. Sometimes life isn’t not about status and money but thankfulness. Living each day with hope and tranquil in heart isn’t that enough? Be able to share with those who are poor, don’t sympathized them but be able to think in their shoes. And give them help. The problem with people nowadays are that they are self-center and selfish… Is that so? I doubt that. Everyone is kind actually. just that they are shy to move the first step. Just like me. Sometimes i wanna help, but i am scared to do it.

And a sad news of PM lee’s wife passed away yesterday. She is a successful woman. i greatly admire her as a woman and a wife. I kept crying after knowing about her biograph, what a great woman she is… She has definitely led a meaningful life for the passed few decades. She is a honorable woman in history and in her family. I am hoping i can be like her, to be successful in life, help shape the world  and make it into a better place to live in. Have peace in the world, so that children could have a happy family. Parents that care for them. And I wanna live life to the fullest. “o”level you are NOTHING! at all. I am gonna crash you like a piece of cake!

GO GO GO WU JIA YI!!!!

咳，现在我是要浪费我的时间还是要振作呢？不知道不知道不知道…… ….

好讨厌这个世界，为什么要用分数来决定人的一生呢？为什么？人的聪颖都用在做自己不太喜欢的事呢？用了大概一辈子的人生来读书，为求更高的知识。但是用你们那聪明的脑袋来想想，你们学的东西到底用了多少八仙呢?

更据人的脑细胞，你一生用不到一八仙，超过了你就是天才。人到底是为了什么而活的呢？我真真…不明白。生老病死-这就是人最简略的命运，每个人都会经过，只是长短好坏的问题吧。

I am sick and tired of this world but I don’t wanna end it like this yet. A good way to learn from your failure is know the factors that caused you to failed. Habits and the way you think are some of the reasons you failed. Bad habits would be likely to cost someone’s happiness and future. If you find my posts too depressing, then stop here and forget about this link forever because I would like to write freely in this blog, in order to de-stress this is the only i can do it, and i never thought of anyone reading what the hell i am typing in here. Since, i actually don’t really like people commenting about me and what i feel.

I am ill, seriously in the way my perceptions are failing me once again, i have no confidence and hop[e to do better in my life, shall i just end it here? i know death isn’t the way but sometimes i would really love a way to escape this world that is suffocating me. I wanna breathe and have a smell of freedom, and without burden on my shoulders. I don’t just want some cock and bull story to make me feel motivated, because someway of another those are still other people’s stories not mine. Creating a path in life is so difficult, can i just stay at the same starting point, while others worked their life to death. This might be what a failure would think, and i am not one of them. Bashed yourself, if you still feel introvert and hopeless, just tell yourself you can do it! Definitely!

他留在我身上余温，至今我还能感受到。火热的爱燃烧着我们，在那个深夜，

我和他成为了一体。

之后，我与他失去了联络。因为我执意要离开都是自尊心作祟…

但如今我仍然无法忘记，他深蓝色的双眸。

那天算是艳遇吗？在柔和的月光下，人总是那么容易沦陷在幻觉下。

让人没有任何自治能力的犯错。在他面前我是变得如此懦弱。

我讨厌这样的我。

被禁止的爱恋，不被世人谅解的一晚。

我和他的故事在那一夜结束了，是一篇不能写下去的文章。

这对他来说只是一场热情，欲火焚烧的爱情游戏。

任我们，谁都不能动真情。

若我们其中一个真的爱上了，就代表我们向彼此认输。

这场游戏也会跟着结束了。我们要坚持我们的固执…

爱上他，还是他爱上我…

我们只能默默地在远处望着对方。

因为我们的性别，地位的相同与差异。

让我们无法对彼此坦诚相对。

我们是多么的虚伪啊..

我们绝对不能承认，我们彼此都爱上了对方。

“To us, love is a game.We have to abide by the rules when we play. But both of us will still be the biggest losers of this unending game.”

留着奇怪的发型，乱乱地。

把耳朵都打满洞，数都数不清。

女生的裙子都很短，超过膝盖,

随风飘逸的裙摆，管你什么身材，

都在享受着这样的自信。

男生发型都很SPIKY,

非常自我满足。

可不知他们的发胶黏死了几只苍蝇。

噢密陀佛~

不仅如此，我们的袜子也短到快变隐形。

总是，被老师骂着，逼我们拉~起来。

可老师们不明白~

我们年少轻狂，不想很普通。

只是想要走在时尚的尖端。

是谁说流行不能很用功？

我们只是不想虚度年华！

哈哈，这是我以前写的。（有改过了~）本来是想写歌词但是就是不懂怎么写，就写了我的感想。呵呵，请别见怪啊~！

I should colour it or what but I am lazy, so sorry~

But anyway this is the main character from the short story~

的確,他是个聪明的小孩。可是他也有不能解决的问题。那就是他和杀人魔-鬼岛藤明，他们有着浓厚的血缘关系。猜到他们的关系了吗？他们是不折不扣的父子。所以，有许多人也怀疑龙介其实暗地里在帮他爸爸毁尸灭迹，偷偷帮藤明脱案。可笑的是，龙介根本没有把这个所谓的父亲放在眼里。因为龙介对藤明的下落了如执掌。说了你也不信，藤明这个国际杀人犯是个恋儿控，每每一干案他就像个小孩一样却找他儿子。去找他？藤明根本就是想要去激怒他儿子，为什么？没原因，一个变态杀人狂想要做的是是我们这些正常人无法了解的。

除了有血缘关系的藤明之外，龙介的大姐也是一位难搞的角色。鬼岛雪英，大学生物博士。对人或非人的事物都很感兴趣。尤其是对她的弟弟，她曾告诉龙介“我这一生的愿望就是想打开你的脑袋，解剖你的脑。研究一下为什么你会那么精明。”。一个杀人犯爸爸，心理变态的姐姐，龙介对他们的存在毫不关心。就算雪英突然出现在他的面前问他：“我能取下你的头吗？”，龙介会冷漠的回她：“闪开，别来烦我。”

不过你以为故事就这样结束了吗？你未免太无知了吧，这才是故事的开始… …，有位人物还没出场呢。

To be continue… …